I started this post about 13 weeks ago and never finished it. It’s been strange, the thought of blogging on an infertility blog after becoming pregnant. I haven’t been sure what to do or say, so I backed away from it…along with many blogs I’ve followed for years now. I wasn’t sure how to connect.
Here’s where I was back in late August:
Even though we are currently 24 weeks along and the pregnancy has been relatively low key I continue to remain well connected to infertility and the struggle that brought us to the place we are now…this beautiful place.
We have had a successful 20 week scan followed by a successful 24 wk fetal echocardiogram although I was stressed during the process. Baby continues to be “normal” and “on track” which has been a hard to accept breath of fresh air after the last 4.5 yrs.
One thing that I remain extremely sensitive and uncomfortable with is information about this baby or this pregnancy on social media. I am on the polar opposite end from the husband, who would post much more if it weren’t for me. He begged me for weeks to “announce” on Facebook and I finally agreed when the nursery was starting to come together. He posted a photo of it and told the Internet we were getting a roommate in December.
Fast forward to today, I’m more than 37 weeks along with a full-term baby that could come anytime…even though I won’t officially hit the due date until 12/23. A stranger asked me recently if I was having twins, nope just one! We don’t know baby’s gender. After all of the madness of IVF and then Donor Egg IVF, we wanted something old-fashioned so we decided to wait for the surprise of a lifetime.
Daily life is getting slower bc it’s harder for me to do things. Please don’t mistake that for a complaint, more just the reality. I’m hoping for as natural a birth as possible, but I’m certainly not creating any hard and fast rules. It will be exactly what it needs to be. We have a doula and will possibly have a midwife at the birth depending on who’s on call. My practice includes OB’s and midwives on staff which I have enjoyed…although it was an adjustment after being in the world of infertility where we are monitored at such high levels.
This little baby is already so precious, and feeling him or her move day after day has been a treasure and nothing short of a miracle. Although I will meet the little thing very soon, it’s still hard to believe that there will actually be a baby in my arms…possibly before the end of 2017. Here’s to a safe journey here little one. We are waiting for you with open arms. You already have everything a baby could possibly need and more.
Wishing a peaceful holiday season for all of us…and wherever you are in your journey, I hope you can come to a place of calm. Whatever it is, you got this. Xoxo